Friday, October 19, 2012 AM

I missed chemo last week, as I had a terrible cold, and they want you well to have chemo.
I still have some slight cold symptoms, but they're not as bad, so I delayed my chemo until this week.
I have all the side effects this time as I had when I first started chemo, with the muscle cramps, nausea, dizziness, and disorentation.  I want to sleep all the time, but I sweat so badly when I sleep.
I've had to change the bed and my night clothes from the skin out so many times.
Mary Douglass came yesterday, and the house really needed a good cleaning.  I don't feel like doing anything, and things pile up and get dusty.  She's so good and dependable.
Bill and Marge called yesterday to see how I'm doing, and Bill told me I need to post again.
My life now seems so boring and dull compared to what it was before this terrible illness.
Judy called last Sunday to meet for breakfast at Cracker Barrell at East Town, and it was one of those mornings that I had a 'sleeping migraine'.  I forced myself to go along, but I couldn't eat, and had to excuse myself to go to the bathroom and throw up during the meal time.  Judy was quite concerned about me, and gave me some anti-nausea medication that she had along.
She called that evening to see if I was better.
She's such a good, sweet niece.
Our big, built-in refrigerator is 'on the blink' again.  I told Steve that I'd just rather get a conventional one this time, as it's so much bother to replace one that's built-in.  We're shopping for one, but I'm in sticker shock.  I would be satisfied with a good used one, but Steve wants a bright, shiney new one with three doors.  They're high as a cat's back.  The one in the rental trailer is making a funny noise, too, and we're replacing it with a new one.  It's size dictates that it won't cost near as much as the one we're getting for Clairemont.
Lowe's is supposed to deliver it tomorrow, and we're keeping their old one to be for emergency use.
Tom got upset with Janie over some small issue and quit.  I'm so stressed with disease, exhaustion, and worry that I'm about ready to shut down Creekside for the winter and just wait until I'm better to work on it any more.  Janie is what keeps me going.
She is out of commission right now with some disorder that hurts her side and back.  She also has a huge kidney stone that they've put her in the hospital for.  They're going to try to 'blast' it, hoping that it will break up, but if that doesn't work, they're going to do surgery to remove it.
I worry about her.  We're both getting older and sicker all the time, and I don't know what I'd do without her.  She's a great help to me.
Lynn called me twice lately, and I was either in a doctor's office or on the way to one both times.  That seems to be the order of my life these days.
I found a new robotic cleaner for the swimming pool, complete with hoses, at a Goodwill.  They're quite expensive, and I was glad to find a used one for a good price.  Our old one was about worn out.
My beautiful Java Green peacock died last week.  I only have two females now, and Steve is trying to get me to give them to Ada Davis.  I think I will.  I'm just putting off getting up there and catching them.
She's been a good friend for many years, and helped me a lot in the past.
Everyone seems to be doing well, except me.  I'm tired all the time, and can't get enough rest.
My hair is breaking and coming out again, pretty badly.
I hate chemo and I hate cancer.