I've been very sick and sleeping for two days.
I don't know why I have these sleeping days, as I've always had trouble sleeping.
I can't stay awake for long when these spells come on me.
I don't know if it's related to the chemo or the cancer, but I hate feeling so useless.
My hands feel like they're asleep all the time, and they hurt like I've put them into a fire ant's nest.
I'm beginning to feel like death would be some kind of release.
I'm trying to not be so much trouble to Steve, but I know he must be awfully concerned, as he's never seen me like this.
My hair is still coming out, and I look terrible. I feel like I should become some kind of recluse.
I can't eat most of the time, and I'm losing weight again.
I couldn't make it to the chemo clinic this week, and I'm so glad to have to pass on it for another week. I don't feel any better about it, though.
I'm trying to decorate for Christmas, and make things look better. Steve put some lights on the outside of Clairemont and down the driveway, but they don't match, and look kinda sad.
Janie and the man who is working for us sometime are going to get the lights on the overhang of Creekside tomorrow I think. It's far more public, and will look nice for Christmas.
I've already put some decorations in the windows of Creekside, and it looks festive already.
I so wish we could get that project finished. I've tired of it.
Nothing makes me feel good anymore. I've been too sick for too long.
I'm going back to bed.
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Claire ~ Sorry for my absence recently. Things have been hectic at home. However, I was so sorry to read about your recent status and I'm praying things will start to improve soon and give you reason to be cheered? My thoughts and prayers are with you, old friend! Take care of yourself and try to keep positive. Loving hugs,
Faune
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